A broken…\\... dream

Someone said it very true that love, river, flying birds and air cannot be bounded in boundaries. We   

read and understand about philosophies but what  if we could feel that personally in our life. A same 


happen  in  my  life  too. A promise if  made than it must be delivered too, so I am today writing this 


only  for  her. I  have  hurt  her, which she did not deserve, but the truth is I did. I don’t know how to 


rectify   that so that some peace could be given to her or make her forget this entire, all I can wish is “


I  wish  if  I  could”.  A  very  famous  saying  is  that  “A  relation  is like a thin thread which joins us


together,if ones broken can’t be rejoined ever again like before”. 









A similar thing happen with us too, no one is guilt neither me nor she, indeed she was never in the    wrong side. Somewhere in google I read and I quote “If you like a flower then you will pluck it and  





if you love something then you will water it , nourish it and help it to grow and bloom” I tried the       



same in here. We were the two people with similar wish, same hope, same aspiration, same   dream , 



same understanding , same humor, same ideas of understanding on a  parallel track miles away from 



each other in the same direction , a relation with little compromises and lots of happiness, may be this



is what we call a perfect relation or “mukemmel” in Turkish… she gave me a lot without giving        anything , she cared a lot without advising me, she comforted me without hugging me, she taught me 

a lot without lecturing me, she motivated a lot without  philosophizing me, she made me realize what 
is a relation specially the value of  a  female, her aspiration, her  wishes and  what is the power of   a 
nurture by a female. Today, I can say that it doesn’t matter how much time we have spend with each 
other but all I can say that some people when they go away from your  life they leave a scar  in  your 
heart but there are very few when they go away from your life who leave behind a land mark and yes 
she left a sign of her in my soul of which I think as a bless that God has made me met people like her,made me met her. I am from that part of the world where Islam is seen as a religion of killer and  fearbut today I do not think the same again, I do not see the muslim people in the same way again, some derailed people of  the religion had spread a wrong concept of  Islam by their in human act off which 
the religion do not permit but today I can say that and actually feel  that good and bad people exist in 
every religion and we shouldn’t make a pre-idea about the person only by his look or name (specially
Islam). Yes, I have changed my idea about muslim people and understood a lot of the teachings of    
Islam. I know her, I  don’t  know  why  God  has made us to meet  each  other  and  fall  apart  and 
separate in this way the way we got separated but today all I can feel  that  within a short time I have grown and matured a lot, she may not be perfect  to  the world  but  she was like a part of mine, and 
may be whole life I need to move forward without that part of life. It was like lock and key system,


compatible to each other. She went away from my life but she had left behind a gift called as “How to be a MAN”.





She was from Turkey, far away from me but still I feel she is here, still I feel  her aura around me… adream that we saw and broke together and a respectful  goodbye to each  other. I still remember somefun talk  like  Bam-bam  and  11  bam-bam  around  me … ahaha …turninginto 100  kilogram  lol…  Idon’t  know whether she will read this or not but I want to say you something … that your  English  was a  killer machine for me. I wish God give us strength to move forward in our  life peacefully and  yes, I wish God us meet again…. I  will  not  say   that God has  snatched her  away from  me, it was in our  fate, a  destiny which  we were  suppose to  face but Ido believe  and  trust  God  that  If I have had  loved her with purity and truth than one day  sooner orlater I will get her back and I think, I have  not  lost her rather this  has boosted  me to make the way by  myself  now  to  become  a  eligible person for  her  or to deserve her (May be… I will stay away from her to respect the belief, to respect her wish, to respect my belief  and   circumstances  to respectthe will of the almighty)  the days  from now will be  hard  for  me  without  her  but I will fight each day to make the difference and keep alive all her respect  toward me, I  wish   the  tears  would  have rolled  down  my  eyes  as  if I have no tears in my eyes  but my  heart is still crying for the lose, I am living a horror story and the story is “Life without you”,if you love something then you will water it , nourish  it  and  help  it  to  grow  and  bloom”  I tried the same in here. We were the two people with similar wish, same hope, same aspiration, same  dream , same understanding , same humor, same ideas of understanding on a  parallel track miles away from each other in the same direction , a relation with  little   compromises  and  lots  of  happiness,  may  be  this  is  what we call a perfect relation or “mukemmel” in Turkish…she gave me a lot without giving anything ,she cared a lot without advising me, she comforted me without hugging me, she taught me a lot without lecturing me, she motivated a lot  without   philosophizing  me, she made  me realize  what  is  a  relation  specially the value of  a  female, her  aspiration, her  wishes  and  what  is  the power of   a  nurture by a female. Today, I can say that it doesn’t matter how much time we have spend with each  other but all I can say that some people  when  they  go  away  from  your   life they leave a scar  in  your heart but there are very few when they go away from your life who leave behind a land mark and yes  she left a sign of her in my soul of which I think  as a  bless that  God  has made me  met people like  her,made me met her. I am from that part of the world where Islam is seen as a religion of killer and  fearbut today I do not think the  same  again, I  do  not see the muslim people in the same way again, some derailed people of  the religion  had  spread  a wrong  concept of  Islam by their in human act off which  the religion do not permit but today I can say that and actually feel  that good and bad people exist in every religion and we shouldn’t make a pre-idea about the person only by his look or name (specially




Islam). Yes, I have changed my idea about muslim people and understood a lot of the teachings of    
Islam. I know her, I  don’t  know  why  God  has made us to meet  each  other  and  fall  apart  and 


separate in this way the way we got separated but today all I can feel  that  within a short time I have 
grown and matured a lot, she may not be perfect  to  the world  but  she was like a part of mine, and 
may be whole life I need to move forward without that part of life. It was like lock and key system,
anything , she cared a lot without advising me, she comforted me without hugging me, she taught me 


a lot without lecturing me, she motivated a lot without  philosophizing me, she made me realize what 


is a relation specially the value of  a  female, her aspiration, her  wishes and  what is the power of   a 


nurture by a female. Today, I can say that it doesn’t matter how much time we have spend with each 


other but all I can say that some people when they go away from your  life they leave a scar  in  your 


heart but there are very few when they go away from your life who leave behind a land mark and yes 


she left a sign of her in my soul of which I think as a bless that God has made me met people like her,made me met her. I am from that part of the world where Islam is seen as a religion of killer and  fearbut today I do not think the same again, I do not see the muslim people in the same way again, some derailed people of  the religion had spread a wrong concept of  Islam by their in human act off which 


the religion do not permit but today I can say that and actually feel  that good and bad people exist in 


every religion and we shouldn’t make a pre-idea about the person only by his look or name (specially


Islam). Yes, I have changed my idea about muslim people and understood a lot of the teachings of    


Islam. I know her, I  don’t  know  why  God  has made us to meet  each  other  and  fall  apart  and 


separate in this way the way we got separated but today all I can feel  that  within a short time I have 


grown and matured a lot, she may not be perfect  to  the world  but  she was like a part of mine, and 


may be whole life I need to move forward without that part of life. It was like lock and key system,



I  will  stand  again … . we  will  stand  again  for  our life, for the will of God, for the dreams that wedesired  to  live  in  our  respectful life and career. Thank you!  With a respect  …  She  (you)  will be always a






part of my life.

"It meant to be lasted for ever
But ended so soon
It was late in august 
had I’d met you before
you were always a cold one
and I was not sure
You were all by the flow 
up in the dark sky and all we changed
In a place no one will find , all your feeling deep inside.
and so I cry".
part of my life.